I like to be able to plan and organize things. Not only am I good at it–I’ve spent a number of years as a professional planner and organizer–but I like the predictability of knowing what’s coming next. It feels comfortable and safe.
Over the past few years, I’ve come to the conclusion that God isn’t very interested in my feeling comfortable or safe, at least not because of my own plans. He wants me to trust Him and His plans, which He mostly doesn’t tell me about in advance. He wants me to stay right with Him so that He can lead me wherever I’m going.
And I’m right back to that trust thing again. If I can’t see where I’m headed and I don’t know the way, I have to put my trust in the One who does, even if He won’t tell me what I think I need to know. My problem is, I want to feel prepared for what’s coming next.
When I don’t know something, I try to figure it out. In general, that’s not a bad thing. In fact, it’s what we teach our kids: What do you think the answer is? Unfortunately, working out what will happen tomorrow just isn’t something we’re made to do. So, when I can’t figure it out, I start to worry that I won’t be ready. I can’t put everything together and make sure I’ll have what I need.
Your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God above all else and live righteously, and He will give you everything you need. So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today. (Matthew 6:32b-34, NLT)
You know what I need today, and tomorrow, and next week Thursday, and whatever other days I have here on earth. Help me to remember I don’t have to worry about tomorrow, because I can trust that You are with me, no matter what happens. I don’t have to imagine every possible outcome because You already know what will be and You are ready with everything I’ll need. It’s not my job to prepare and plan it all out, just to follow You. Thank You for leading me through today and through all my tomorrows. Help me as I continue to learn to trust in Your timing and provision.