I was talking with a friend the other day about her choices to be mindful. As she described it, “mindfulness” was basically just what I would call being present, or focusing on who she is with and what is happening right now, rather than distancing herself by rehashing the past or worrying about the future. I’m not so good at that.
I have two little boys who aren’t yet very aware of the consequences of life. I envy their carefree attitude sometimes. As an adult, not worrying can feel somewhat irresponsible. Of course I’m supposed to care what other people think of me, right? I clearly ought to make it my concern to consider how my actions will affect everyone around me. On some level, I suppose that’s true. I can’t just rush through life willy-nilly never once considering the consequences of my actions. But if I am completely focused on then, I miss out entirely on now.
This is the day which the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it. (Psalm 118:24, NASB)
I’ve had the Sunday school song based on this verse running through my head the past couple of days. I feel like I don’t have time to rejoice. My mind gets so cluttered with all the things that need to be accomplished every day. The cooking and the cleaning and the schooling and the spending time with people to build relationships and the spending time on my own and the making money and the bill paying and … suddenly I’m in the middle of a Martha moment, anxious about how on earth I’m going to do all of that! Life sometimes feels like I need 25 or 26 hours in a day, just to fit it all in.
But You didn’t give us 25 or 26 hours–and You’ve said You give us everything we need (Philippians 4:19). Please help me to be mindful today. Rather than worrying about what I did or didn’t do yesterday or what I may or may not do tomorrow, let me recognize You right now. Help me to remember that I don’t need to focus on the things I don’t have any control over. You have not hired me to run the world and trying to do so will only wear me out. Let me rest beside quiet waters and allow You to refresh my soul.